Life is sometimes ordered and routine. You know what’s going to happen on a day to day basis and can see continuity down the months and years ahead of you. Sure there are hiccups – some of them pleasant and some not so pleasant.
In the last 5 plus years, I’ve been complacent. I work hard, look after my family and kept my head down. But when I raised my head and took a look around recently, I realized the landscape had changed. Some aspects of my life are going to continue. Well the hard work sure will and I will still look after my family, but…my children are growing up. In fact the oldest 2 are young adults ready to fly the roost.
My oldest son is in position to get a lovely career job that he’s been working towards for years. Even if he doesn’t get it, he will still – most likely – move out this summer. It’s time. He’s got his degree, he has a girlfriend and now needs his own place. Independence. Freedom for both him and me?
It won’t be easy on me. Even though I have three other children coming up behind him (in fact son #2 is likely to move out on Son #1′s heels). And it will bring about change in a lot of areas. With 2 sons moving out, my house is too big and requires too much work to maintain. And if I’m selling my house and moving…where do I go? Do I want a house again even?
One son is moving an hour south and the other 2.5 hours north. My elderly parents are 15 minutes away. I have some freedom with 2 kids moving out – but my parents are becoming more dependant as time moves on. Do I move or don’t I? Part of me wants to move a long ways away! But the responsible part says I can’t.
It’s the same for my writing. I’m completing one YA series (Design series) and will in the fall, complete the other YA (Family Blood Ties) series. The YAs, although I love writing them, don’t sell as well as my adult series. So do I write more YAs? Or move the age up slightly so they are NA – or just write adult books? Retirement is so not happening!
Then there are the genres. I write in many genres, but have recently been wondering about becoming more focused on one or two. I like to write the stories that come to me, but wonder if I narrowed my focus, would I be more marketable? I wonder if that’s a good thing or a bad thing? With the current state of publishing, is there even a ‘right’ answer?
See…it seems like I have more questions than answers. It’s not my normal state. Usually I’m decisive and proactive. Lately it seems I’m playing the waiting game instead. That’s not a place I’m comfortable with. I’m learning to be, but progress is slow! I’d rather make things happen than have them happen TO me.
What areas in your life are in a state of flux? How do you handle them?