I just spent three days in Disneyland with my boys. A few times my hubby posted on Facebook some pics of himself or them on some crazy ride–I am noticeably absent. I even joked with him about his Facebook friends wondering where I am. At the time, I felt a few seconds of…I don’t know…wistfulness…that I wasn’t more adventurous or adrenaline-seeking. It would be…fun…right?…to be able to give myself over to this kind of excitement. To be the kind of mom who charges onto Tower of Terror with a smile or rocks the cage on the ferris wheel.
After forcing myself on several occasions to go on roller coasters and being terrified out of my mind on them and usually sick to my stomach afterward, I finally came to the conclusion–I don’t like them. And as such, I am not going to ride them. No matter that I think I should like them. No matter that people wanting me to have fun do everything they can to get me to ride on them.
One good thing that is coming with age is the ability to acknowledge who I really am and accept what I want out of my life (notice I did not say to accept the wrinkles and gray hairs, etc. I’m still working on doing that gracefully). What I am is a bag of contradictions. I’m shy and quiet and don’t like being the center of attention. At the same time, I love writing thrilling and exciting and erotic stories (though I’ll still blush if I have to talk about them), meeting readers who enjoy my work, and teaching other writers what I know. I love love and passion and spontaneity and traveling to new places. But when it comes to Tower of Terror and California Screaming? Give me a great book to read anytime. (Note: Standing for almost an hour in line after line is much easier to take when you have a bunch of romance novels loaded on your iPhone.)
So yes, age brings a lot of stuff I don’t like, but knowing and accepting and liking who I am a little bit at a time?
That’s turning out to be priceless.
What about you? When it comes to thrill rides, how far will you go?
To all the moms out there, have a great Mother’s Day!!