I have a theory that there are two drivers in the human condition. Fear and love. Fear can be very useful because it makes you keep your head up, see danger before it arrives, and take action. The thing is, fear kills creativity. Love is where I want to be. Creativity happens in a love based world. It is born when you can look at the world through the eyes of love, filter it through your senses, and make it visible to everyone.
As you have probably guessed, I have a deadline. Everyday I face a task that feels like a mountain. Or worse, I am called to other tasks and the mountain grows. It has occurred to me that it is fear inducing. All I can see now is getting to the end. I can finish, but is this the atmosphere in which I will do my best work?
I do believe creativity needs a container, in order to not become a meandering chaos. That is what an outline is for. But I am free to wander in and out of that outline at will. I liken it to sitting down to meditate and knowing I have the freedom to just be present and lose track of time because there is a timer that will tell me when I am done. When the edge of that container approaches everything comes together. I love that part.
Perhaps the key is to have conscious awareness of what is driving me and make some choices. Fear is great for discipline. It gets me to make a schedule and stick to it. I can check off my to do list and know I am on track to conquer the job. Love is what I tap into when I have arrived at the page. I accept what I have to offer and know my best is different on different days (my secret for curing writer’s block). I have to thank the fear once I get to my computer and set it aside so I can do what I love. Panicking over word count is not going to make me a good writer.
OK, I feel like I have my two drivers in there right place. What about you? Do deadlines work for you and do you have ways that you handle them?